fridae <20-05-07>while watching "One litre of tears", although i felt very sad but in de end i still din cry.. maybe because i din understand the pain of being paralyze ba..

wads the feeling of one dae u woke up and you found that one part of ur body cannt move no matter strongly u wan it to move? it is quite saddening...

todae morning i finally felt that juz after i woke up.. i was trying to reach my air-con controller and found that my right hand's palm and fingers cannot move! no matter juz how desperately i was trying to move it but it juz wont moveee.. not even move a single inch.. by den i realized that how "无能" i am.. i finally knows wads the pain of struggling to do something that is impossible to do.. sorry "Aya Ikeuchi (池内 亜也)" that i cannot fully understand this pain in the past.. =(

btw the reason of my right palm paralyzing is because i press down my right hand while i slping.. right hand had not enough blood circulation and nerves are also being pressed.. so my hand reminds numb and unmovable for a few minutes =p